DISCLAIMER: I am not wishing of having "one more chance" with someone I have been with through this blog.
Disclaimer to the DISCLAIMER: but it doesn't mean that I have closed my doors to my exs.
I woke up around three in the morning today, thanks to my migraine last night, and I figured out that I wouldn't be able to drift back to sleep so I resorted into browsing the net. *Sigh* I found out that, at 3 AM, facebook is not an ideal site. OK, I know porn is a good idea, especially at that time, but I'm not just really up for it.
I checked my DVD collection... there's Devil Wears Prada, Sex in the City, Harry Potter collection, Twilight and loads, loads more... okay. I can't see myself watching those, not at that time, then all of sudden, it was like the heaven parted to give time for the sun to shed a ray of light on the only pinoy movie I have a liking on, ONE MORE CHANCE!
So I shoved the CD to the DVD player and, within minutes, I was just like a natural waterfall that tears won't stop on leaking from my eyes *ohmy! im too gay LOL* I sorta forgot to remind myself that my tear glands are not disposable and I might be needing it in a later time, can you believe that? May God forgive the writer of this movie; he/she made a lot of people cry.
OK. So I have some few lines stocked in my mind and that's the main essence of this blog! Here goes.
"Alam mo naman ako, If kaya pang ayusin, pipilitin! What if this is really what both of you need? Then just be strong. Magiging mahirap at masakit pero hopefully all the pain will be worth it" - Basha's closest girl friend. I forget her name, but bless her.
oooohhh. This! is what I believe on, when im in a relationship. It made me think that everything will work out as long as someone wants to make it work. Stupid me to believe the writer! Stupid of me to believe on it. And I like it being stupid.
We always know the other side, the side after every failed relationship, but we just fail to realize that we might go unto that side. How it will hurt and the tunnel of pain that we have to pass through. No one who loved did not pass through this. We all know it and we fail to mind it whilst we're mad, or to some while they are cheating. We fail to acknowledge that we are capable of forgiving, capable of handing another chance or capable of asking for it. For one who understands love will love despite the pain beyond pain.
"I love you and I will tell you everyday, Everyday until you forget the things that hurt, I hate the things that make you hurt and how I wish I could take them away. If only it could be done, I'll do it for sure..." - Trisha recited that song she made for Popoy to Popoy on their first monthsary, but on the latter part of the movie, she recited it again with "...but it cannot be done 'coz you won't let me do it" as the parting line.
Once there was a boy in my life, he made all the efforts for me to move on from a break up. He made me feel that he really loved me. I like him that time and, I figured out that, I love him when he was no longer at my side. I'm really sorry that I was too honest to admit that entering into a relationship with him would make him a rebound, and he doesn't deserve to be one. *sigh* I really feel sorry losing him, but i feel more sorry that he doesn’t want to work it up with me anymore, now that I'm ready. If only I gave him the real reason why do we need to stop whatever we are having at that time, he might have given me a chance to try it all again.
We always need to have both laces of the shoe to tie it, yet it only takes one to untie the knot. This is how relationship works and falls apart. We always must be thankful to the people who love us, those who gave up their whole soul to us, because they have earned it. Once, and if, you feel that the relationship doesn’t fit the both of you, please always know how to break it, give them the real and honest reason why do you need to break it, and break it to them gently. It's not just because they earned it, but also because it is only proper for you to do so.
It will always be twice the pain when someone is left in the darkness. They might be tempted to do the worst things in trying to look for their mistake; they may also blame it to their selves because you chose to be selfishly happy. It may be easier for you to part with a lie, but please spare them from the misery by giving them the reason so that they won't need to start from the scratch. Give them credits that they can take it, no matter what.
"Sometimes, it's better that people break up -- so that they can grow up. It takes grown-ups to make relationships work." - Mark, Basha's new officemate. Does this mean that I'm too matured to function? Or, as what I see as the reality, that I have not grown up yet, that's why I still have to go with the same scenario over and over again. Yeah. I think so too.
We may not admit to ourselves that we act immaturely, most of the times, and this makes us more immature. That's the problem, my problem. We need to have the maturity to accept how things go or, if they don't go on as planned, have the maturity to accept that things will be alright if our expectations fail, one way or another.
Maybe, it's not just the time for the both of you to be deeply involved in a relationship or maybe you don't have the faculty yet to make a relationship work. Maybe. We just have to trust the unknown and that trust will serve as the base of our maturity.
"Naalala mo nung ako ang nandyan? Oh, e di ba't ikaw pa ang nagsabi s'kin na bakit kaya tayo iniiwan ng taong mahal natin kasi baka meron bagong darating na mas OK, na mas mamahalin tayo. Yung taong hindi tayo sasaktan at papaasahin. Yung nag-iisang tao na magtatama ng mali sa buhay natin, ng lahat ng mali sa buhay mo." - Popoy to Chino, his friend.
OKAY, I know this line very well; one good tearjerker jerk, and I want to believe in it. I’m pushing myself to still believe on to it because it promises me of someone who would care for me more than my previous partners did and I found that exciting because, my exes, they made a good job taking care of me.
We may never know who will take care of us in the future, and possibly we may end up with someone whom we have been with in the past. Take care of anyone whom you are together with, because they are the only ones you have the right to care for at the moment. If you end up apart, always part with soft, good and honest words, just so in case that you meet each other on a latter time.
And to highlight it all, the cherry on top of the movie:
Popoy: "Ayan ka nanaman sasabihin mong walang problema pero meron naman pala!"
Basha: "Wala naman talaga eh"
Popoy: "Bash, paano ko maayos ang problema kung hindi mo sasabihin sa akin, kung hindi ko alam?"
Basha: "Poy, Hindi lahat ng problema kaya mong ayusin, And believe me, hindi mo gustong malaman kung ano yung problema ko."
Popoy: "Eh ano nga kasi yung problema?"
Basha: "Gusto mo ba talagang problema? Kasi nasasaktan ako kahit hindi naman dapat akong masaktan. Sana kaya ko lang tiisin yung sakit na nararamdaman ko. Kasi ako yung humiling nito, di ba? Ako yung may gusto. Sana kaya ko lang sabihin saýo na masaya ako para sa'yo, para sa inyo. Pero hindi eh! Ang sama-sama kong tao. Kasi ang totoo, umaasa pa rin akong sabihin mo na sana ako pa rin. Ako na lang. Ako na lang ulit!"
Popoy: "Mahal ko si Trisha"
Basha: "Alam ko!"
Popoy: "She loved me at my worst, you had me at my best at binaliwala lang lahat ng yun."
Basha: Popoy yan ba talaga ang tingin mo??! I just made a choice?"
Popoy: "And you chose to break my heart..."
Shet Shet! This really sucks... I thought I was Popoy. Every line is well said and I could no longer find any better words to say.
I believe that everyone who is capable of love and have truly loved went through with all of these dramas, one point in their life. It will be painful and awful, I know, but it's part of life's journey.
Remember the third law of Newton? For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. If no one wants to be hurt, then no one will love. If everyone is afraid to love, NO, I can't even imagine this world without it, without love. Catastrophe.
We must understand the third law, to prevent a world of chaos, to really know how to love. Everyone will have to face pain for us to be able to be at bliss with another soul intertwined with ours. It will be a long, long process, we will have to go through all the mess, it may, at times, bend our principles here and there, or it may even put us in peril, to learn how to truly love. This is life and love we are talking about and we have to be strong and face it, to be truly happy.
I know, but i just can’t conceive right now, that whatever happens, I will fall in love again. Not now but, I hope, soon. To whom? I don't know and I don’t have any idea but what I know is that I don't wish for that best man. I wish for the right man for me. When that, time comes, Mr. right man appears before me, I hope that I am, too, is the right man for him. Time will come and I promise myself, I will love him everyday, of forever.
Okay, now i need to stop all these.
